This sadly is my last post for the year.....

Firstly I want to wish you all a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.....

At 10.11 on Monday night we received a phone call that sadly has left our hearts broken, it was a call to tell us that our best friend had died..... just like that...gone.

I cannot tell you just how broken my heart feels right now, the tears cannot stop falling....we just want him back....

I first met Neal (Toad as my Darlin' & I always called him) over 20 years ago when my Hubby & I first met, they were in fact sharing a place together & the thing I remember most about that time was how he made me feel like one of the*gang*. We all shared a house together & my 2 oldest boys grew up regarding him as their second Dad. He was a groomsman in our wedding party & back then before he started loosing his hair he was a dead ringer for *Johny Farnhem* a real spunk.


He loved to go riding with Dave & my Darlin' & Ryno our son until he moved to WA this year, & last year when his older brother *Spike* moved back to Coffs he made up the fourth, every 2nd Sunday off they would all go on their trail bikes & have the best time of their lives true mates just enjoying each others company.


Last Saturday my Darlin' helped him pour a new slab out the front of their house who would have known he would never get to sit out there & enjoy it.


Toad was never one to like cuddles he would however accept heaps of cuddles from me he had no choice I cuddle everyone & in the end he came to expect them.



His brother has asked me to say something at his funeral so I am now jotting things down as they enter my head, this saying farewell speech has to be perfect I only get one chance at it & there is so much that I want to say, need to say, if in fact I can say it.......

This post has taken me 5 days to write I think it is the hardest post I have ever written. Sadly there has been quite a lot of ill feelings towards us, his closest friends from his partner which has made his death even harder to bare, just so unnecessary. His funeral has been set for Monday a day I am truly dreading. It is just over 3 weeks since we attended his Fathers funeral. It will be huge he has so many friends a large amount are traveling from all over Australia to say their farewells & show their love & respect to an incredible Man who at the age of 41 has been taken from us way too soon....

Wishing you all a Merry Christmas & hoping 2010 is kind to you all, surely it cannot be any worse than this year....

Lyn xxx